Okay, it’s been a little while and I felt the urge to update everyone on what’s going on with me. I’ve been so busy with work the last three months that it’s been completely nuts. I find myself pulling from waking to sleeping and back again with little to distinguish the two. I’ve had a couple of serious projects at work that have really been a boon, and a boost to my credibility with linux within the company. With that said I’m trying to plan a trip to Jacksonville to the Florida Linux Show on March 9th, and if I’m lucky, work may spring for the entrance and gas to and from. If that works out then it’ll be awesome, if not then I’m likely going to schedule the day off and pay my own way in. It’s a chance to get out and actually attend one of the conferences (albeit a small one) that deal with something I really dig into, something I really believe in.
The other thing is the adoption…most of the people who read this blog know me well enough to know that the wife and I have been trying to adopt four beautiful, smart, zany kids for a year or so now (it feels like forever sometimes!), well, the adoption is finally upon us! WOOT!!! Sometimes something so big in our lives loom so large over us that it seems like the waiting will crush us, that we’ll never endure the anticipation of ‘finishing’. Well, here it is, 6 days away from meeting with the judge and having everything for sure, legally, finally done. It hasn’t completely sunk in yet…there’s always a part of me that stands off to the side and says to be careful of raising up hopes lest they be dashed upon the rocks of realism, that something could go wrong, that a paper may be mis-filed, that someone may decide at the last minute that we haven’t jumped through enough hoops…the doubt, the fear is there…the dogged determination that is within me that so many seem to admire is the part of me that I call my Eeyore personality simply puts his head patiently down and gently wags his tacked-on tail and says ‘If that’s the way it is, then I’ll endure that as well’. The doubtful part of me hates Eeyore with a passion that would be frightening if it weren’t so silly. That’s okay, fortunately Eeyore is the personality that always wins over, out of sheer ‘That’s okay, I’m used to it.’.
Odd that I would identify with Eeyore so much, isn’t it? I guess I’ve always identified with that personality type though…even my favourite character in one of my favourite movies is Ludo from Labyrinth. Same archetype. Same feel…maybe I’m just a big dumb monster. That’s okay though, I understand that underneath, there is a heart of stolid love, of patience that will stand and be…perhaps it’s just me, perhaps I see flaws within me that make me want to strive for that ideal, or perhaps that really is me on the inside, the me that I rarely show to the outside world – but that tries to shine through anyways.
Nah, I’m just a big dumb monster.
God bless us, God keep us, me and my family and those that I’ve been lucky enough in life to call my friends.
Help us through this, and everything else.
Thank you all for checking in on me, and I promise that I don’t forget about you, just that some days it’s all I can do to drag myself off to sleep at the end of it all. I pray you all good tidings and peace.
S
This ends up being the point where I do most of my rambling. Sometimes it's good, most times it's not. As far as I go, I'm a 30-something husband, father, friend, geek...everything else you want to know about me and everything else you don't is contained right here in these pages.
~Swift